A new look of me

Not feeling well today.. Not going to work today.. Not seeing Jayden today.. So many things cant do when i fall sick.. *Sad*

Sometime i will think that whether am i really the girl that my hubby really want?? Or did he ever betray me? All this answer i wont know.. Only the fod knows and he know.. Kk la.. See here i go again.. Emo again.. Miss my Jayden boy so much.. :(

Peak period is over.. Whats on CNY 2010?? Steamboat everywhere.. Blackjack everywhere.. Wishes everywhere.. Lolx.. I keep losing money this year when i gamble loh.. Lolx.. But nvm la.. Small money nia.. But still heartache.. Dragonfly on CNY 2nd day.. FUN!!! Sooooooooooooooo long never step into dragonfly liao sia.. And its my first time clubbing with my childhood friend aka bros... Kekex.. But guess what!! Me and hubby too happy and too enjoying liao.. And we spend $200 on that night.. Haiz~

PS* Miss those time when we start dating....

Had a small arguement just now with hubby..

When can i totally let go?? I'm still progressing.. =(

Give me time.. I still cant put 100% faith when he hangout with girls.. I know whenever he play he will forget about his status..

D.I.Y

This year i D.I.Y my nails again.. Every year i always tell myself next year then go outside do.. Every year also say same thing but yet still have to D.I.Y.. But ok la.. I also not must do outside de la.. And i dye my own hair this year also.. Hehee..

Nice??

Jayden boy is 8wks plus le.. = )

PS* Nothing happening on VDay is ok.. I just want us to be HAPPY.. = )

Finally...

Had my haircut liao.. So happy!! Feel so clean and light now.. Jayden is so happy everyday now.. Every morning he will played on his own and make funny sound. Sianz CNY here again, everytime CNY will think about him.. Cause every CNY we will go watch movie and stuff de la.. Now he's not with us liao i feel kinda weird.. And hubby doesnt like to go to crowded places de.. Now still got Jayden more not convenience liao.. And guess what, this year de stupid VALENTINE DAY is on CNY.. WTH!! I guess not gonna have a wonderful time ba.. Cause gonna be busy on CNY and still got baby Jayden with us.. Have been missing so much after Jayden is with us.. But i'm not blaming BB.. Cause after all is worth it.. Must learnt that life now is different liao.. Still got BB depend on us.. Cannot anyhow anyhow liao..

Lolx.. He is happy laughing like a ah pek.. ^0^

PS*Still learning to let go..

SWEET

Its been long i felt so sweet & loving from him le.. He saw these picture in facebook and he commented.

The ice may melt but my love for you will never melt .:)))

Its been long i felt this way.. So happy after i saw this.. And today he bought cheese fries for me to eat worx.. A little small surprise ba.. Hehee.. = )

PS* I hope occasionally still can have this feeling*

Jayden shower

Sooooo busy on Jayden shower and kinda pissed.. Well, don't wanna talk about it..

Enjoy the pictures..
                                                                

What are symptoms of depression?

Any of these symptoms during and after pregnancy that last longer than two weeks are signs of depression:
•Feeling restless or irritable

•Feeling sad, hopeless, and overwhelmed

•Crying a lot

•Having no energy or motivation

•Eating too little or too much

•Sleeping too little or too much

•Trouble focusing, remembering, or making decisions

•Feeling worthless and guilty

•Loss of interest or pleasure in activities

•Withdrawal from friends and family

•Having headaches, chest pains, heart palpitations (the heart beating fast and feeling like it is skipping beats), or hyperventilation (fast and shallow breathing)

After pregnancy, signs of depression may also include being afraid of hurting the baby or oneself and not having any interest in the baby.

Ok.. I'm having the above after and before pregnancy.. Am i having depression?? Not sure.. But i doesnt feel this way now.. So i guess i might have depression before.. But not too serious.. During pregnancy this symptoms was long.. Cant remembered how long.. Always cried for no reason and get irritated easily.. But nv do all this in front of hubby.. After pregnancy all this symptom was about 1month only..

Haiz~

Singapore is really very small.. Just found out somthing today.. But not very sad la.. Just feel that why is it so coincidence.. Is it because he has too much r/s previously till like everywhere in singapore there is a possibility to met them??

PS* Will not bored over this coincidence thingy*

           Jayden is 01month old le

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
     

PS* Love hubby and jayden so muccch.. Nothing can ever replace!!*

Good Bye 2009!!

Happy New Year everyone.. Gonna say good bye to 2009.. Last year de today hubby proposed to me.. I guess he has forgotten this day liao.. Anyway, i don't have the time to argue with him anymore la..

Hope 2010 will be a better year for me..

Mocking at myself

Lolx.. guess what my boy went polyclinic for his jaundice check again last saturday.. And i realise that they did not use the stringe to draw his blood.. *See la, cry for nothing* LOL..

Finally my boy is getting better le.. Was so worried about his jaundice level loh.. Cause if for long it is not treated it will affect the BB brain.. ~phew~ what a relieve now.. =) hope this saturday his level is getting lower again.. Cause sunday Jayden is having his showering.. I want him to be happy and healthy on his full month..

PS* Everyday Jayden is healthy & happy ^________^

2009 Xmas

This year X'mas have to stay home.. First, i'm on confinement.. Second, my BB is still an infant.. I cant just dump him at home and go party.. Well, i feel happy to see him.. Especially when he's smiling at me and DADDY.. ^_^

Merry X'mas everyone out there.. Shall party or celebrate next year then..

Tears

        Have been crying non stop this morning once i got home after Jayden check up at polyclinic.. Doctor suddenly told us that BB Jayden jaundice is going up again.. The last time was 220.. And today was 237.. Haiz.. What went wrong?? I don't understand.. Have been so stress about EBM nowadays but i still wanna continue cause i wan my PRINCE to be strong and healthy.. Is it my BM got problem?? That's why his jaundice is going up again.. Have to go back this saturday again.. Doctor said saturday have to draw more blood then send to hospital for more detail.. But saturday drawing of blood is thru his vein!!! When i think of this i cant stop crying.. My poor Jayden is so small and young to draw blood i guess.. Mummy saw me crying when i reached home and she keep telling me to stop cause during confinement period shouldnt cry if not when old liao.. It is not good for eye sight..

PS* Get well fast pls..........

Jayden is growing

My Jayden boy is growing everyday.. Can't wait for the day that he can call me MAMA.. Hahaaa..

PS* I just can't stop looking at him

Confinement

Confinement pass about 1week liao.. =(
Hate confinement.. Cant take it!!

Currently i'm BF my BB.. Almost given up on EBM.. So tiring and stress!! Now my PRINCE have mild jaundice.. I cant take lots of thing.. Everyday i eat vegetable stir fry with fish or lean meat.. Getting sick of it.. Doctor advise NO herbs, Ginger & Alcohol.. Everyday eat plain plain.. *YUCK*
Hope my BB jaundice faster recovered.. Everytime see him being prick my heart hurts though he did not cry..

my precious BOY

PS* Pray hard that BB Jayden get well fast  <3

I'm a HAPPY MOM..

Finally.. My BB Jayden Boy is out.. Hehee.. After my last post on my blog in the middle of the night my water bag burst.. =) and i'm not in pain when my water bag burst.. Hahaaa.. Hubby was shock too!! I woke up at 4am.. Go toilet and finished my small business went back to sleep.. Then suddenly water keep leaking.. I thought something wrong with my bladder or what.. LOLx.. I faster walk to my mom room and luckily she's not asleep.. Mummy was very GAN CHIONG also loh.. Mummy accidentally slip and fall when she step on my water.. I was so worried at that time and mummy quickly get up and said she's ok..

And seriously.. My labour was not an easy task for me.. Haiz~ I was in pain for 24hr then have to go for C session.. 04 dec midnight reached KK hospital.. 06 dec my prince arrived.. Wanted to have a natural birth but cant.. Was really very sad at that time.. That i couldnt have a natural birth.. (T_T) And guess what!! MIL first remark on me when she visited me was?? MIL:"You never exercise and walk about during your pregnancy, that's why u cant natural." GOSH.. I was in pain at that time and she said this.. Is not i don't wanna exercise or walk about during my pregnancy.. Is i really cant walk as my leg always hurts badly when i walk.. Even hubby also said this to me loh.. During my early stage i still got walk about and go swimming de loh.. I wonder their eye is do what de loh.. Until my last trimester liao.. My stomach is big liao.. I really cant move about so much.. So i don't move about what.. Anyway, i was busy recently just to look after my PRINCE.. I guess i wouldnt have much time to do blogging le ba..

he is so cute!!

PS* Mummy LOVE YOU.. *MUACKZ*

Its FRIDAY!!

Friday again le.. A boring weekend again or a tired weekend??? No idea.. By right today have to wake up early to make kaya roti and half boil egg for hubby de.. But i overslept.. Sorry DEAR!! Today is 04 dec liao.. When is my prince coming out?? Due date is 09 dec.. Haiz.. A bit stress.. Today hubby came back home he like very happy likdat.. Don't know why!!! But same again.. He came back home and sleep again.. Hahaa.. I cant imagine when our prince is out liao.. How our life will be?!? Will there be arguement?? I hope not.. I know i'm being paranoid..

BAD DAY

Dame fed up today.. Went KK hospital for check up after everything while waiting for payment.. Hubby fall asleep!! And what the hell.. That stupid KK hospital cashier screw up and miss my queue no.. Then i still don't know cause was too concentrate on staring at the queue no display.. Didnt know that i've been staring for 45min.. Hubby suddenly woke up and get very fed up.. Ask me why wait so long liao.. Never go and ask.. *Dame* till now i am still very angry loh.. As if is my fault!! And he still got the guts to tell me off that he got an appointment at 5pm.. Then should i yell back at him and tell him off that "WHO ASK YOU TO FALL ASLEEP". I swear i'm not gonna go for my check up with him anymore.. *Just an anger* Everytime after check up have to rush with the clock.. I cant stand it loh.. Everytime he go check up with me.. Confirm have to skip lunch de.. But at least hubby in the end bought bun for me!! =)

PS*Miss those time that we can dine outside* =(

God Bless

Hubby not home yet.. Haiz.. Hubby went to TTS cause one of his relative in hospital now.. As i'm not convenience to go over i have to stay at home.. I'm sure everything will be fine.. Everyone in the family is very worried.. Especially hubby cousin, he wanna have a chance to be a good son as he mentioned on facebook..

PS*I'm sure god will know and fulfill it*

Hand in Hand

Honey moon period is over liao.. I should say long ago its over liao.. Lolx.. Hubby got back his license liao.. And got back his car again liao.. But the feeling haven come back.. Miss the feeling when he hold my hand while he's driving.. That time tell him about this and he still can say i can take the initiative to hold his hand de ma..


Well, man just don't understand.. The feeling is different..

PS*Will not expect much from him anymore*

Self reflection

I guess i have to kept quiet for most of the things happening in my life now.. Its really been hard to control myself.. I'm still trying to stop.. At time i did not nag at him just stating the fact and yet he feels that i'm nagging at him.. Haiz~~ I should just every time keep quiet and swallow down everything izzit?? When we are dating not married yet.. Anything not happy about also can talk.. But now married liao.. Things really change alot.. Its like he cant be my listener anymore.. Many things had change in life.. Trying to adapt to it.. Things that i'm not nagging at him.. He feels that i'm nagging at him.. I'm just trying to elaborate out and let him understand.. Nowadays i always feel that we cant talk anymore.. When we haven married.. Things that we are not happy about we still can talk about it.. Now totally different.. Now became married couple alot of thing cannot talk.. Its like he cant be my listener anymore..

                                   Those were the time..

                     This is the first time he made me very touch!

                                     Those happy hour....